Monday, April 27, 2009

A cloudy day

A cloudy day, the plane sound and singing of birds, soft wind plays with my hairs and blown my thoughts away. A green hill is at the lift hand with some yellow flowers but totally empty. And me with a cup of coffee a pen and a notebook writing something aimlessly, looking at the sky that some birds are flying here and there, some alone and some together...

Friday, April 3, 2009


I am all empty, my heart is not beating, I am out of words, I just saw “ the legends of the fall”, what a movie!
A story of a man who lives by the rules and another who lives with no rules and they both lead a tragic life. Its not about life being fair or unfair, its about life itself and destiny and our beliefs and not being cursed or blessed…
I am touched. Can feel the current of life, can breathe but stunned. Why?
A man who was loved by all, while against all the things we learn as good and true and honest. A wild man of great madness, a man of no rules and laws.
I want to play piano just like A4A. I want to be wild and mad. Will my dreams ever come true? Do I have any dreams? Being good is not enough.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year 2009

It’s really strange because I am only one that believes to take the advantages of all the occasion ‘in this society’, of course in positive way. So, tonight we had a small New Year party for 2009!!! I am sure the others may wondering whether I am approaching to Christian or what but the reality is that as I mentioned before that I am taking the advantages of any occasion. And I believe that when we approach to the international platform we have to respect all the cultures and customs in the world. “Respect to be respected” The people who has got the knowledge can judge themselves to select their ways.

I really don’t know the perception of others, it might be totally opposite but still I can say that they are right in their own way. Anyways its 11:49pm, only 11 minutes for New Year. Good bye 2008, you know I really don’t believe how 2008 comes to the end but I hope that this New Year brings lots of victory, joy and happiness to our life with lots of achievements and bright future.

God, I have lots of wishes and plans ahead for 2009 so please, please and please help me. I believe that you can do anything, you have created the world. “God is great” I didn’t do wrong with others and I am sure that no one will do wrong with me.

Sometimes I really feel alone but I think that there might be someone in this world that thinks about me; maybe I am right or wrong!! Hey its 12:02, Yehh its New Year now 2009 so Happy New Year to all!!!

Whatever I wrote that was from last year so let’s talk about New Year, Well in this year I have to take care of my specialization in university because it’s my last year and plan for my master program. Moreover I have to think about my engagement and the other important think is my children (My small brothers and sisters).

Well, I have to go to bed now and get some nice Zs because tomorrow it’s not off here in Afghanistan so I have to join the work.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

I hope I was not alive!!

Its 12:20AM and I couldn’t sleep, there was lots of thoughts in my mind so I just left my bed.

I am listening to Titanic instrument which is very softly and inspiring. Others are already slept, it’s dark here.

Music talks to me, in fact I am feeling it from the deepest part of my heart. It says close your eyes, forget everything, you are in the sky among the stars and the moon, now concentrate and listen to your heart.

I did so, and…

I just see somebody far away, with open long hair, white dress. She is waiting for me; I am trying to recognize her. I am getting near to her slowly, slowly and she is also coming in my side. She is in front of my eyes. We are just looking to each other eyes; I get her hands and said “You are the most amazingly astounding wonderful girl that I never know” she is in my harms and says I feel that I hold the whole world, I am influenced by you. I replied, you are mine, let me hold you in my harms forever and let the world goes on as it is. She said “promise me that you always be mine”

No!!! somebody is trying to separate us, she is still in my arms and we are holding each other very tight… we are getting separated slowly, slowly, trying not to get far from each other and bawling . I still see her over a far distance. Eventually I realize that our own life separated us while I open my eyes.

I see my computer in front of me and its 2:00AM now.

I hope I was not alive, the live is dirty, and it’s not beautiful!!!!!!

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Strange thinking!!!

I don’t know but sometimes I think that I am thinking strange, means I think for something but I can’t get it finally “always thinking big for impossible things” so It seems strange!!! Therefore that would be great if we more believe on our luck because we think individually that doesn’t affect all aspects of the issue we are thinking about. Moreover, the issue I was and still thinking about is associated with more than an individual so we can say everything we think is mutually beneficial.
Eventually the topic is really interesting and important, the issue I am thinking about is really vital for me since it’s integrated with heart not mind which is crystal clear for everybody that we can change our mind but we can’t change our feelings “what the heart says”
At least I would love to try to achieve what I am thinking about, hence that is more complicated or a kind of complex, finally might be fuckin’ difficult you know!!!

Look at the awesome indian lyric!!!

Mera Dil Chahe Tum Ko Jetna...Na Kesey Ko Chaha Mene Itna

Darkano Main Tum Ho Samaye...Ben Tumari Jeya Nahin Jaye

Monday, August 11, 2008

Hi guys, I am back!!!!!!!! :)

Hi guys, I am back!!!!!!!! :)
Thanks God I finish another semester!!! It is my holidays so I took the advantages and visit my family in Mazar but I was in mission “working hard at the office” boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That was great in fact I spend one week with my parents at home so finally I had had a great time “I enjoy it a lot”

Now it’s time to get back to work and I am getting ready for the new semester as well :)!!! Don’t you think life is getting boring??? I think so!!!

Sometimes we need some change in our life but in Afghanistan it’s not possible, we can’t do the things we wish to do!!!! The culture, the society and the environment doesn’t accept what we wish to do.

Anyway let’s get rid of all these things!!! You know guys I am missing someone badly since 3 months and I love the feeling I get while missing someone badly!!!! I don’t know what is happening but I am crazy, yes I am crazy.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Eventually, exams are over!!!

Its good not having exams anymore :) I think I did a good job for all the subjects expect for Business Statistics which I didn’t study at all, it was my last exam and extremely tough, so sad :( even for that based on my general information I think I did a good job.

Well, now i am waiting for my scores and 15 days off "wow!" I am so excited because we are getting ready for specialization, isn't that awesome???

Also we will get our bachelor degree from USA "That is really cooooooooool!!"

Anyways, i have to take the advantages of the holidays so first I have to visit my family and then I will enjoy the summer "somewhere"!!!!!

Thursday, July 10, 2008

I want to try everything!!!!

I want to try everything but i can't manage my time "poor time management Idriss!! :(" what to do i am already fully busy with other things as you can see in my past topic "Time Management".

I love to include one more thing in my activities and pare my schedule accordingly. And that is music "Guitar and Piano" I just love it!!!!!!!!!

Idriss don’t forget about the terminal exam!!!

Oh yeah! I was totally out. Hey the first subject is on Sunday “Financial Management” and after exam the engagement party, wow. We will have a big fun at the engagement party-hearty.

No worries I will share the photos in my facebook !!!

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Crams for terminal exam!

Hi all!!!!!! Since long time i didn't post anything, i was quite busy with work and study "tough time" but that is great i have 10 days off before terminal exam which is on 13th of July-08.

Yesterday was the last day of school before terminal exam so we had lots of chatting with our fellows "kidding, laughing and happy faces :-) :-)" I will not forget this period.

Pppfffffff!!!!!! Two new huge projects have been approved :-) so i have to concentrate on that as well "work load :(" Also this is time for appraisal, i don't know whether i receive raise or not but i deserve it. "I am doing great at work ;-)"

Surprise!!!! We have two big office party-hearty in July, isn't that coooool???? And on the first day of exam there is our friend's engagement party; i am so excited because all my class fellows will be at the party "a big enjoyment night, dancing wow!"

The last day of terminal exam is 30-Jully and after i need a big rest so i have plan to catch a flight to Dubai but its hot "No!" I have enough time to think about it!!!!

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Another Friday is comming

Today is Thursday, its 1:14PM i am in the office. I was thinking about tomorrow and tonight, borring holidays in Afghanistan. Sometimes i think that i will do this or do that then i will enjoy the life but on that time of course i willn't be in the same age, these days will not come back again as childhood is not comming again "never".

Idriss!!!!!!!!!!!! Not again!

I don't know why i am getting sad while i am alone but i am sure this will not remain the same, i will achieve my goals very soon "God is with me"

Anyways today i have plan to go for swiming and then having a little b... party to forget thinking about the responsibilities and other things that hurt me while thinking.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Kick off exams!

Finally, Idriss kicks off the exams but still there is lots of thinks a head “Poor Idriss” But I like the challenges cause challenges make us strong and prefect. Anyway today was my last day of exams, I came at 8:30 from university “Very tired and badly headache”. We had a good bye party in the office “My friend left us in the same organization and join another organization” Very sad because he has gone among us “I will miss him in the guest house and office” I am happy because he joined good organization with good salary. I enjoy a little in the party but it was good “Dancing”. Now I am in the guest house listening my favorite song and writing all these things “confusing”. Tomorrow is holiday (I love Friday) I will not go gym but for sure I will take shower and go to barber, after as usual snooker with Masoud Jan “great friend of mine” then I will go to my uncle house to meet my mom, aunt, grandmother and others cause my sweet aunt is leaving on Tuesday back to US. Also I will work with my uncle on the family three structures “My God very big family”.

Monday, May 5, 2008

God give me pacient

I don’t know why I am getting weaker day by day, I think I can’t deal with the problems. I am feeling very alone and feeling very hurt. I want to cry but I can’t cry cause my colleagues will see otherwise my eyes are full of tears. I hope I could have someone to support me, at least think about me and understand my feelings. I really need someone to support me or I could share my feelings with. I am trying to life for others because someone may need me “I can’t be selfish”. I don’t like the environment but still I have to adjust. I miss my childhood cause I didn’t know about relations, environment, rules and regulations. God please help me, give me patient to deal with problems and difficulties. And thanks god that I have my computer, because my computer is my everything otherwise I will die maybe.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

what happend!

Yesterday was really great! You know I met my aunts and my cousins for the first time but i can’t meet my uncle but no worries I talked to him. I was really excited cuase for the first time I felt that I have relatives who think good for me. In fact I wanted to say lots of things but ….. Anyway, when I come back home I was thinking about all the things and feeling very happy cause when I check my facebook account I saw that my sweet cousin has already added me and someone for the first time told me you are doing very big and great job. Now I really want to cry! Ok, after checking my emails I went to bed and had a very nice dream, my clock alarmed “I wanted to sleep” I didn’t know how night passed (why very rapidly?). I woke up very sleepy but still collect my gym belongings and went to gym “I did very good exercise” but I was not feeling very good, even I am not feeling good now “Why?” because I wanted to spend this two days with my aunts and cousins. Well, after I come to office "today the office was also very different to me" “boring”. Oh my god again like a selfish man I am talking about myself a lot. I have lots of things a head to do so ba bye for the moment!

Monday, April 28, 2008

Why i do that!

Today is Saturday 26th of April and I had planned to do lots of things but I am not willing to implement my plans “as usual”. The plans was to wake up at 7:00am, take shower and then go to international guest house and work with my colleagues then come back home and study for my coming midterm exam. But I change the whole plan; I went to barber of course very late then I check my emails “boring”, eventually I call my friend, he came after some minutes and we listen the music but still I was bored. We had lunch and after went to snooker club to pass time and of course I won my friends but still I was thinking about my plan that I can’t accomplish. Maybe there is a reason that I can’t; for sure there is a reason that hurts me when I think about it. On Friday night I had arguing with my colleague that I really didn’t want to do that, hence I was very sad cause I made her sad. I am SORRY!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

My Poems!

Guarding Angel

When times are hard, were feeling low, We don't know where we want to go it's time we need to know.

An Angel to guide you on your way
An Angel to brighten your day

When you need an uplifting thought A hand to hold or to hug a lot

An Angel to sit with you awhile
An Angel to make you smile

Our Angel knows our dented soul. The friend comes from an unknown
source and soon we feel complete once more.

An Angel to encourage and guide
An Angel to stay by your side.


Beauty lies in the beholder's eyes

So many beauties in this appealing world
The true beauty lies in the beholder's eyes

There is beauty in the child's innocence and in mother's love
There is beauty in a friend's affection and in a tender heart
There is beauty in a pretty smile and caring eyes
There is beauty in the morning sun and a rainy day
There is beauty in the flaky slow and a pleasant spring
There is beauty in the milky moon and the graceful rivers
There is beauty in a hard earned victory and a hopeful soul
There is beauty in me and beauty in you
So many beauties in this spectacular world and its dazzling life
And the true beauty lies in the beholder's eyes


Those childhood days

Oh those beautiful childhood days
I do miss them in many ways

Free periods in the school when we used to roam around
Cool games that we used to play in the ground
Small fights with friends that lasted for short duration of time
Interesting classes when we were taught the nursery rhyme

School lunch break when we used to share our food
Punishments in class when on the bench we stood
Tours in school that we were excited about
Free periods in class when we used to shout

Rushing out of the school to catch the school bus
When we used to reach home in a total mess
Little games in the evening when we all friends used to gather
Those beautiful days when we had nothing to bother

Now life has become hectic and has increased its pace
We have to rush and struggle hard to win the life's race
Sometimes I wish would those golden days come back again?
When we were always happy sans any pain

Oh those beautiful childhood days
I do miss them in many ways


Sunday, January 27, 2008

Anyone for a nice cup of tea?

Anyone for a nice cup of tea? I would like everybody to read this story as an advice.

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, were talking at a reunion and decided to go visit their old university professor, now retired.

During their visit the conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in their work and lives. Offering his guests tea, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of tea and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to the tea. When all the alumni had a cup of tea in hand, the professor said:

"Notice that all the nice-looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the tea. In most cases it is just more expensive and in some cases even hides what we drink. What all of you really wanted was tea, not the cup; but you consciously went for the best cups.... and then you began eyeing each other's cups.

Now consider this: Life is the tea; your job, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life. The type of cup one has does not define, nor change the quality of life a person lives. Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the tea. The happiest people don't have the best of everything. They just make the best of everything.

Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly...... And enjoy your tea.

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Student Life

"Time Management"

Along with work responsibilities, being a student is a challenge for me. One of the most important things in order to do both jobs effectively is having time management skills.

I certain that 6 hour sleep is altogether adequate for a normal human, so I pared my schedule from 6:00am to 12:00pm, I wake up at 6:00am and go to bed at 12:00pm “aggregate 18 hours”.

From 6:00am to 8:00am: pray, exercise in gym, breakfast and groomed for office.

From 8:00am to 4:00pm occupy in the office “aggregate 8 hours” as:
  • 8:00 to 12:00am: prioritize vital tasks on the daily activity plan, I try my best to be considerate of my work, finish office tasks on time and meet the deadlines. Usually I update daily activity plan, reply all emails related to business and do other office tasks till noon according to daily activity plan.
  • 12:00 to 1:00pm: as usual lunch and pray.
  • 1:00 to 4:00pm: Mostly I arrange meetings in the afternoon (1:00pm, 2:00pm), do other office tasks and at the end evaluate daily activities and note unfinished tasks and find the reason.

From 4:00pm to 8:30:pm occupy in the university “aggregate 4 and half hour” as:

  • 4:00 to 4:30pm: Pray and getting ready for university, preparing university belongings.
  • 4:30 to 5:00pm: 30 minutes spends in the way to get university by car.
  • 5:00 to 8:00pm: In the university, usually studying in the class but rarely in the library.
  • 8:00 to 8:30pm: Again 30 minutes spends in the way to get home.

From 8:30pm to 12:00am: sometimes it is really frustrating to work hard during the day and study at night, but I always utmost to do my best not to let it effect either my work or studies as:

  • 8:30 to 9:00pm: as usual dinner.
  • 9:00pm to 12:00am: usually studying but sometimes first do my unfinished vital office tasks.

The reasons I have started working was to earn money to support my family and afford my further studies, and get my bachelor and master degree, also to gain experience. Basically, I was planning to do my studies abroad, but I heard about the KARDAN University “The first private university established and registered with the ministry of higher education”. One reason is that it has a unique institution which brought experienced teachers and we have the opportunity to learn from them. In addition to my work, I can study In my country and live with my family. However, different students work for different reasons. Some of them are working to support their family financially, some want to gain experience beside of studying and some are working for financial sustainability for their studies.

My goal is to do my BBA, do my masters in this field and make career for my self. I also want to work in higher positions and help my war-ruined country with the gained knowledge. My dream is to be an independent person, especially being an Afghan and show or prove to the whole world our ability.

Thursday, December 6, 2007

My interview in the university!

Q. Could you please introduce your self?
A. I am Idriss Enayat and a student in the under graduate program in KARDAN university affiliated with USA Preston university, also working as GIS (Geographic Information System) Manager in ACTED French International Non-governmental Organization.

Q. Could you please tell me about your background?
A. I was born in Mazar-i-Sharif in 1983 and I was 14 years old when we left our homeland Afghanistan and went to Peshawar, Pakistan. I came back to Kabul in 2005 in February after 7 years.

Q. Where did you get your education?
A. In Afghanistan I studied for 8 years and then in Pakistan I graduated from Ahmad Shah Baba secondary school. I also join there some IT & business colleges for 3 years. Then I came here and join KARDAN University.

Q. What difference have you observed between the education systems in Afghanistan and in Pakistan?
A. I have never been to Kabul University so I don’t know about it but I can say that KARDAN University education system is the same as there. One thing which is remarkable in the education system in Pakistan is fee. The payment is much better in Pakistan.

Q. What are you interested in?
A. I like music, playing cricket, snooker, reading book, traveling, (meeting different people & cultures).

Q. What is your opinion about the people in Afghanistan?
A. My people in Afghanistan are very simple.

Q. What made you come back to your country?
A. When our country come a free land at that time I decide to back and serve my country with my knowledge and skills which I learned.

Q. What problems have you faced here during this time?
A. I have problems with house, we don’t have house in Kabul, before I had education problem, power, and internet and still I am not adjusted to the environment here. But for the sake of my country I can do and bear anything, and one thing which I like the most is that now I am working, studying and contributing in sports with my afghan brothers and sisters in my homeland Afghanistan.

Q. What do you want to be in the future?
A. I want to be a computer programmer but I don’t have enough time here so I decided to studying business, because I like business too.

Q. If you want to give a message to the people what will you say?
A. I just want to say be honest for your people, respect people, practice things on yourself and build your country.

My interview in the office!

Interview with … Idriss Enayat, GIS Manager
Geographical Information System (GIS) is a technology that allows a great variety of applications through mapping out different sets of indicators. For ACTED, the NSP has a lot to gain from GIS which makes it possible to better interlink the program dynamics and the heterogeneity of outcomes in more than 1,700 communities.

What are the general aims of a GIS department?

The aim is to establish a standard Management Information System through the production of unique maps on the projects.

In terms of coordination, we use these maps at all levels: from decision making to proposals writing, security reports, etc… For instance, we have prepared some maps that show what security incidents took place, where and how it impacts on the NSP implementation, especially in areas where we have ongoing projects. Maps can also show the evolution of a project at all stages.

This is actually a long process.

Can you explain more how this process work?

Firstly, communities select with ACTED the area where a project will be implemented; the most vulnerable areas can be identified in terms of damage (natural or man made disaster, prevalence of disease, lack of infrastructure, lack of government services etc), after the priority needs have been identified; village profiles can be created, and the allocation of funds per area can be assessed. This overview of the area facilitates planning and the development of models to anticipate crises, especially in case of emergency to identify the worst affected communities.

After the selection of the project intervention area and the collection of baseline data, dynamic maps can give a good view on the progress made throughout the implementation of a project against the profile offered by the ‘baseline map’. Through maps we can show a good picture of the project activity and its outreach (geographical scope e.g.: distribution points and the number of families benefiting from it) and situation and context monitoring can be visualized in maps (e.g.: movements of population, flooded areas, etc.) and give immediate transparency on its potential consequences for project.

Finally, maps can showcase causal links between different elements. They can show the impact of a project in the area; the initial and final project maps can be compared, thus giving a clear picture of the changes a project has induced. Also, maps from different periods and zones can be compared.

How can we get more information on the maps you have created?

Recently our department created an internal mapping website to make the maps easily available for coordination, reporting, program and others. But there is still a lot of work ahead! Our GIS activities are expanding months after months!

Example of maps created by the GIS department